Behind The Curtain

so ambers party was fun sept for the whole chris getting kicked out part

but i did do somethings i shouldnt have like make out with jennie during this game the werst of it is that i did it with jess right there

i dont know about mine and her relationship basicly i want to be with her but its not really my choice is it

i only have one condition to me and her contenueing our relationship and that is i want the actual title of her bf like if she introduces me to someone it should be this is my boyfriend david thats all i ask , not this is my friend david

ne way love ya all and peace out

so today i was the most pissed off today i have ever been


so I fuckin want to kill someone right now any one it really dont matter just all i can really say is



FUCK LIFE

well yesterday sucked and i dont know about me and jess

yeah so life kinda sucks at the moment

i played like im ok but every one know that you cant just forget.

well yeah

im not getting in to detail so

peace

so yesterday was awsome my cuz lloyd came over and we were playing cards and he was like lets get drunk

of course i was like fo shizzle

so i drank like 16 shots of strait vodka lets just say WOW fun fun

but cant remember much.

and today I fohawked my hair it is awesome yup yup. check my myspace for the pic

then went to my cuz krystals and got a bit high

2 joints and 2 bong bowls

well about my comment before

i just say i've learned 2 things that are mostly 100%

1. people dont change
2. and nine-tenths of the time history repeats its self


by the way its not jelousy its cause i dont want to lose you and i dont want you to get hurt again i know how heart break feels and if i were you one of the last things i would want is to have to feel it more than once

ne way

love ya
peace

so hey yall whats up

so yea jess told me some things today that kinda sucked well not kinda it sucked alot

so i got one thing to say about it jess remember that you were hurt once before just think twice before you let him do it agian ok?


love ya
peace

well i just want to say hay to every one

congrats to jill and byron on your new found love way to go you two

sorry about looking all sad and down at school today jess
just had alot on my mind and it all needed to be sorted out but dont worry about it ok its nothing



well yall talk to you later

peace out

i<3 u jess

well i have to decide what i want to do tonight

1. go to the show at my church and see jess

The Good: get to see jess and watch ninievah play
The Bad: jess will most likly hang out with ninievah's band members more than, being ignored is not that much fun.

2. call jake fisher and go to a kick ass party w/ drugs,alcohal,and sex

The Good: do i have to say it again drugs,alcohal,and sex
The Bad: i really dont know jake all that much and most of my friends dont drink so i cant really bring ne 1 i know.

decicion, decicions

well what ever i dont know what to do most likly going with jake to get sloshed sounds like funn to me

so i hate life as of well for a while i have anyway i dont know why exactly is just seem like everthing is pointless and worthless like i have no perpose. i dont know, life sucks the highlight of my life is Jess thats about all i think about most of the time yeah i know im a loser but what can i say

Question?


have you ever thought about taking the knife you got in your room and ending it all with a quick slash across you wrist?
its just a question to every 1 i want to know if im the only one or not i dont want a bunch of comments saying "dont do it" just a Question ok?

hey yall just wanted to post seeing as i have a computer in front of me at the moment

well hippie circle today was awesome today only the fact that all of jill's songs want to make me cry but they are all really good.
so im looking forwerd to hippie circle tomarrow. fun fun oh our circle was joined by alex sharlow today that was interesting but fun.
after school i went and hung out with jill and learned some stuff about philosphy but it was funnish.

jess boo on the blind date it makes me want to cry. well i dont care if you go, you can if you want to. anyway i missed you like all day today that sucked like right after i left the school i wanted to go back and see you

booooooooooooooooooooo on your mom

well thats about all i got

peace out yall

love ya jess